Matt has a little bit of a tough night in the ICU with massive sweats (I think his body reacting to all the medications they pumped in to him).  He was rough looking when I left him last night - as it was really late and I could only spend about 5 minutes with him.  His heart surgery he is totally awake and coherent for so he was mentally and physically exhausted and on edge (as any of us would be being on an operating table for 4 hours and being able to listen to the doctors conversations).
He had some bleeding last night when they took the tube out of his groin (one of the ways they went in to his heart) but they were able to control it.  He had some chest pain in the middle of the night...and right now I'm not sure what they did as Matt and I have had limited conversations this morning.  He insisted that the girls continue on their schedule so up today we have Ciara's 5th birthday party celebration with her little friends at Imajin That in Lawrence.  He doesn't want the kids to worry.  I hate that I'm not in there with him but I know he is in good hands (last night his nurse was awesome!) and that the kids need to keep some normalcy.
Please continue to pray and keep him in your thoughts!  We need these stents to work and the blood to flow thru continuously!!! 

Surgery was a success!!

After 3 1/2 hours of being persistent ~ the surgeon was able to get in to Matt's vessel and open it with 3 new stents!  They are hoping that these new stents will help alleviate his pain.  They had to go thru 2 different ways.... Looked at the heart from different angles to make this work.  The doctor felt that Matt was too young not to do everything in his power for us!
Matt will be in ICU tonight and in the hospital thru the weekend.  I have not seen him yet but will give him a big hug from everyone who has been sending well wishes all day!!!

Matt's heart surgery

I'm in the room all too familiar ICU waiting room at Lahey ~ Matt's procedure has been postponed from 1030 until 130.  Two emergency's came in ahead of him.  We took the time to stroll the mall - and I tried keeping him busy on an impossible mission of finding Irelyn a backpack for school.  He despises the mall when he's healthy so imagine him today when he didn't eat, couldn't have coffee but had no place else to go??  He's taking it like a champ.  I'm sure he wants to scream at someone but he gets such chest pain when he does! 
We have no idea how long surgery will be ~ but I'm praying for short and sweet!  praying that the stent was just off a little and a quick fix will be all!  I'm preparing for the worse - as he is as well.  This is some scary shit having them play with your heart like this!!  Keep him in your thoughts and prayers please!!! 

I don't know why the picture is sideways...it's not on my computer. 

Not a happy person.....
 

Oops

Today I went to get the twins up from their naps. I made loud noises as I was approaching their door. I heard Ciara say "here comes fucken Momma". WHAT? So I opened the door and asked what she said and oh yeah, she repeated it. I corrected her and said it was a bad word blah blah blah.
I guess I really should watch what I say around them.

On Monday, July 11th, Weber died. He suffered for so long and I will miss him so much. I do know he is no longer in pain. The kids do not seem fazed by it. When we told the older girls Raya said "Oh, I knew it Mom, he was old and sick".

My favorite words of this week "Corn in the dog" and "corn on the bob". I make the twins say it every day so I can giggle.

2.9 years already

Ciara and Irelyn have sure kept me busy for the last 2 1/2 years. I do not even know where the time has went. The days drag but the weeks fly by! I'll be 40 years old next week. I can't believe that either. My babies have full on conversations with me. Ask a million questions and challenge me daily with their energy. I am definitely a tired, worn out mommy! I never kept a baby book for any of the kids. I want to use my blog for some things that they do. Quick little notes and pictures that will make me smile one day reading them!

Really? More rain???

Lydia Raya the "twinnies"

The girls are all doing great. The twins are 10 months old and all over the house. One thinks about it and the other performs it! They take turns too - there is not one being more of a trouble maker than the other. Lydia and Raya continue to be the BEST big sisters of all time! They both help out with their baby sisters - the interaction makes my heart melt!

My surgery to fix my muscle separation and hernia is coming in 10 days! I'm so excited for it! I am SO DONE with people asking me if I am pregnant. How RUDE! And out of all the times people have asked, not once was I mean to them about it. Where I should say something mean like "no I miscarried last week" to let them know it's not ok to ask someone a question like that - I just explain myself. WHY? I keep saying I'm going to tell the next person who asks that it's a rude question but I won't.

Summer is almost over and it never feels like it got started! Enjoy what is left!! (I already did some back to school shopping!)